You are loved and already missed Grandma

So, I'm really not good at this blogging thing, but I thought I'd add my two cents in memory of my beloved Grandma Jarman who left our world for one much better this last Saturday morning. I have so many fond memories of spending time with her at the house on Palm Lane, her craft store, the Gilbert house, and Thanksgivings/Vacations at the cabin in Pinetop.

I think we take for granted the time we have with those we love, thinking they'll always be there. Even though I did take the chance to visit her more often over the last year or so than previous years, I still regret that I didn't take the opportunity to visit her MORE often and get to know her even better.

I remember a few years back that I was asked to "grandma sit" while grandpa was in the hospital or something. I felt so weird having nobody there but me and grandma, and yet I cherish the memory that I was able to share the short time with her. I remember that being the first time I told her the one thing I wanted absolute most (knowing her health was declining) was for her to be at my wedding someday (whenever that would be). Then, a year ago when we thought she would be leaving us, I visited with her and reminded her that it was still the one thing I wanted most, and that I wanted her to let me know she was there. So Saturday, as I said my final goodbye before her body was taken away, I gave one final reminder that I want her to be at my wedding and to let me know she's there.

I already miss her so much, but I think what breaks my heart the most is seeing my Grandpa Jarman and the pain and sadness I can sense in his face, in his eyes. He tries to joke about it, but the loss of his companion of 62 years or so is written in his face. And it hurts just as much to watch my mom and her pain of losing her mother.

I'm thankful for the knowledge I have that families are forever, that Grandma is in a better place and reunited with members of her family that she's missed for a long time, and that I WILL see her again someday and be able to give her the biggest hug!

This is one of my favorite pictures of Grandma in her later years. I think it captured so much in her expression and mom's. (Thank you Leslie for capturing this priceless memory for all of us!)

I love you mom, I love you Grandma!